In 1999, I became a leader due to the requirements of the work of the
church. Although I felt deeply that I was not worthy of the job when I
first started, after a while, due to my arrogant and self-righteous
nature, my initial cautiousness gradually turned into exalting myself
and testifying about myself. I cared about food, clothes, and enjoyment,
greedily indulging in the blessings of my status. I even wanted to be
on an equal footing with God. In the end, I was finally dismissed and
sent home. It was only after this that I had an awakening and realized
that “status” had made me give up on God and the truth; “status” had
made me set up my individual kingdom; “status” had turned me into an
antichrist; “status” made me embark on the road to death. It was only
then that I discovered that I had strayed so very far from the right
path and already fallen too deep.